I often have the feeling of being outside looking in,
I don't choose the spot, it's just my default position.
Don't get me wrong, I don't need popularity and fame,
I just want to belong with folk who aren't unfamiliar with my name
and familiar with my smile, and understanding of my fears,
and who won't get scared away if sometimes feelings come with tears.
It's the kind of thing that's given free, but it's earned and not owed.
As an aspiring artist, I'm used to shouldering the load
of putting myself on display and hoping for a bite,
and if I walk away empty handed, I'll still sleep at night.
But I dream, and I chase, and I crave that moment when
someone sees the fire inside me and invites me to come in,
sets a spot at the table of their heart and mind
and tells me to relax and have a good time.
It's happened before, I'm not always the outcast,
but the last time I felt well-connected was pretty far in the past.
To the few that have held on, please don't think I take you for granted,
you're the support and foundation of the future I have planted,
but before I grow much taller I need to lay down some more roots,
and build up a little confidence in my personal pursuits.
So here's my request, saying it straight is the hardest:
Would you open your doors and inspire this artist?